Dreams, Glitter and Tears

Darling and I are doing well, his phone calls have really become something I enjoy. Not to say that I never did before but it's quickly becoming one of my favorite late night habits. I enjoy talking with him and lulling him to sleep with my sweet voice. I especially love it when he falls asleep on the phone and I whisper little things to him. Most of all, he is enriching in his encouragement and playful teasing. I look forward to that the most, I think.
I still want him to collar me and I wrote him a letter telling him what i need and wat out of life. It was good for him to know but it was especially good for me to think about it. I have spent many years of my life no longer knowing what I wanted out of it. For me to really reevaluate my needs vs my desires is so good for me. I thank Darling every day that I think about myself rather than being a slave to others needs. He doesn't know I do, but it's true nonetheless.

Other things in life, in a month, I will be at my job a year. That feels fantastic, especially after several short lived jobs and James telling me I wasn't capapble of holding a job. I just needed something that made me happy. As mundane as it is, I enjoy seeing my regular customers and hearing about what is new in their lives. It's a highly social job which is perfect for me. I spent too many years without proper social interaction and I now realize how badly I was hurting for it.

Romance at home not to be forgotten, James and I are doing well. He snuggled me tonight for quite some time, petting and running his hands over my hair. Given that he is still quite distant in general, it was nice. He has increased his snuggling and hugging in general, which makes me happy.

The kids are good, getting ready to go to school. I'm not ready but they are, emotionally and mentally.

Nicholas passed away, which saddened us all but it was his time, he was getting old. We will bury him under the tree in the back yard.

In all, life is good. For once I am happy, truly happy. I'm glad I finally came forth with some secrets that had been haunting me, the truth really does make everything in life better.