Dreams, Glitter and Tears

Man today has been something else! This morning I was taking the kids to school and my passenger front tire just felt weird. Like it was low or the shock gave out or something. The car was handling a little different than it was yesterday/normally and seemed a little low on that side when I was driving. I had James look at it when I got home and he discovered something that I missed when I had checked the tire: The thing was so bare in one spot that you can see the belts. He gave me his car to take to our appointments and took off of work for the morning.

Laura, Kay and I went to therapy and had our appointments. Kay came with me today because she had an eye appointment afterward, so I decided to talk about Kay. We discussed with Steve that Kay has a fear of growing up. We simply don't know why she does either. Steve gave me some ideas of what we could do and she opened up a little about feeling left out of the social activities of the older kids, and that she doesnt feel "babyish" like the younger ones. Oh, to be trapped in the middle, poor kid.

We took Kay to her appointment, she is nearsighted with some astigmatism. We ordered her glasses, I expected to get them there but they don't make them fast even though they make them in house. A lot of their glasses were expensive so they don't keep the blanks on stock. Should be about a week or so before she gets them. Bummer. We forgot the $5 copay and they wouldn't order the glasses without us paying so i had to head home and drop the girls off at school before getting the money from James.

James ended up not having the money, so I started calling around for a favor from someone, all I needed was $5 after all. I finally got ahold of B and he lent me $10 so I'd have some gas too. With 1 hour left of school for Kay and 2 for Laura, we left them at home and ran the errand to get the money, paid for the glasses and headed home. On the way I saw a turtle that had wandered toward the highway, fell over the curb onto the street and decided to turn back, but couldn't climb back up to safety. He kept going back and forth and I felt so bad for him. I asked James if I was able to save the little guy and he said no, he was afraid we'd be late to get London and James from school. I hope someone saved him. James switched my bad tire out with my spare while I got James and London.

Later in the evening, I got online and Ayshe and I got into a spat about something I had told him a few days prior. I'm simply too harsh in how I tell people things and he took some things the wrong way. I also crossed some boundaries about my feelings and how appropriate it was (or wasn't) to tell them to him. Both got angry and bared our teeth and we finally came to an agreement about how future interactions about delicate subjects would be handled. We made up, which is nice. I still feel tension but a lot less than there has been since things changed between us a few months ago. Time will tell if he will find the desire to trust me in the future and I will be a little careful to be sure I'm not acting inappropriately or wording things wrong. Maybe it will be the building blocks for undoing some bad habits.